Happy New Years!!

Today all I seem to be doing is typing then backspacing, then sitting and looking at the little cursor line flashing as I decide what to write. I guess listening to Finch and Stiffler argue over Stifflers' mum, from American Pie 2, isn't helping. My sister keeps complaining that me writing this blog is sad. However, she is sitting in a pink jumper matched with pink pyjama bottoms, taking pictures of the dog, that she is undoubtedly going to upload onto the laptop, cover in cheesy little love hearts and stars and make her profile picture on facebook. Closely followed by secretly (or not so secretly) Googling Justin Bieber porn. Bunny just told me to write about true love. Yeah, OK. She says 'In life you get the man that you need, not the man that you want.' This is coming from the woman who just told the room that she should be cloned and pickled. It makes me wonder how many families are like mine. When you visit someones home they act like a perfect family. You can picture them going to church on Sundays, or playing Scrabble on Thursday family game night. Is that what families are supposed to be like? Or is it just what the media have brainwashed us to believe, that this is the proper etiquette?

I babysit quite often for two of my aunties and today I looked after Jacob (3) and Carmen (2). Sometimes I wish that I could magically go back in time and be about three again. Everything was so simple. My biggest worry was my peg being moved down a zone at playschool. I also love how kids are so funny in their innocence (not unlike my lovely step mum). Jacob asked me where his mummy was today, I said 'up your bum', it's sort of a running joke. At this point he put his hand down his trousers to check. He then says 'No she's not! That's Carmen!' I then fall about laughing as he runs away to play with a baby doll.

Everyone always tells me not to wish my life away. And up until recently I didn't really understand what that meant. I'm always thinking about what life is going to be like when I live by myself or when I start uni, but I also look back and regret doing or not doing things. So I guess I should stop looking back and stop looking too far forward or I'm going to miss things that are going on right in front of me. As annoying as my family can be or how sick I am of school, I know that they will always be and have always been there for me and that when they are gone I will miss them. I realised today that I still haven't thought of a new years resolution. So now, my resolution is to make the most of what I've got while I've got it and not let a single moment slide by without the recognition it needs.